I used to write every single day. I loved it! It's my 'drug' of choice. If I can't write I am lost.
Right now I am lost because my laptop has taken a break, a mini vacation, a hiatus. Who am I kidding, my laptop has gotten seriously ill.
Now, I am like a flounder flopping around on a fisherman's boat. I'm having a hard time breathing without my laptop.
My laptop was my best friend. I pushed that power key and when those blue lights came on, I got a rush! My heart pumped faster and my hands got sweaty because I knew that within a minute I would insert my flashdrive and my "world" would come into view and I would escape for the next few hours with my characters. Sadly, my laptop decided she needed a break.
Right now I'm suffering from laptop envy. I see people walking around with their laptop bags and I get instant attitude. I see them sitting in Borders, drinking their Frozen Chocolate Coffee Crunch and pecking away at their keyboards and I get jealous. My poor "Gracie Gateway" shut down two weeks ago and has yet to come back. I'm suffering from withdrawals.
I look at my empty laptop bag and remember the good times we shared. Typing that new scene,or accidently deleting a whole chapter, but she knew my distress and "auto recovered" my document. We've been through a lot together and I refuse to let her go. I'm diligently searching for a "doctor" that can bring her back to life. I am dreading those words, "there is nothing we can do" and I know I will be in mourning, as she has been with me for five years. She had everything you could want. She held my secrets, my music and pictures of my family. She was someone I could "talk" through and she knew what I wanted to say, even when I didn't know how to spell it; she knew.
So today I sit and wait for the 'doctors' opinion and hopefully he can patch her up for just a little while longer.
Gracie Gateway I miss you and need you to get better soon!