Tuesday, September 30, 2014

GETTING WHAT YOU DESERVE

Today I am just writing; after all the blog is about books, shoes and writing. But just wait until you see the cute little shoes/boots I have gotten for the fall...but that is for next week.

I feel like I need to purge myself. No, not like ridiculous movie where all bets are off and you can do whatever you want for 24 hours!

First the most frustrating thing you can do to me is take everything that I say as an opportunity to say why I am wrong and why you are right. OK, am I not entitled to an OPINION? Am I supposed to continue to agree with everything that everyone ever says? Am I supposed to never change my mind about anything? Geez people!

Secondly, my dreams are live and in living color! I dream big and I think big so it only beckons that I would want big things, right? Well, my dream of being a 'talk show host' has come true. My dream of being an author; yep came true and now my dream of having someone in my life that I can share everything with is, OK, well I'm still working on that but I know now that I am in a position to change that as well.

Third, I want to thank all of you for being on my journey for the past six months. It seems like this life has taken a turn down the path that I was trying to get to years ago but for some reason was not able to get there.

Suddenly, I find myself on the path that I wanted to be on years ago. I now know that the reason I am on the path now is because I was not READY for the journey years ago. I had a lot going on in my life that would not have allowed me to appreciate the path and journey that I am on now.

See sometimes we just have to wait because what is for us will be for us; as long as we wait for it.

So as I right this, I smile and know that what is for me, is for me and that no matter what you may say, I know I am right where I need to be.

Have you started the journey to being the best you possible and if not, take a look in the mirror and ask yourself, why?

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

NOT ENOUGH TIME IN THE DAY

There is never enough time in the day for me to do everything that I want.

For instance; today is Tuesday and already I have gotten behind in things that I need to have done.
I need to prep for tomorrows radio show on +WLVS Radio and then I need to get at least 20 pages of edits done for +B Swangin Webster novel. I then need to finish up reading my girl +Lindsay Errington pre-novel and then I need to take care of mailing out some ARC copies of novels for +Austin Camacho and +Jeff Markowitz after which I need to finish mailing out the copies of novels for +Annie Rose Alexander all this while wanting to spend time with my cute grandson, Isaiah and then I must walk the dog.

Before all that can happen, I must finish work on my 'day' job. Yes, I actually have a day job, working at a middle school in Waldorf, Maryland.

+Mattawoman Middle School is where I spend almost ten hours every day doing things that help pay my bills. Don't get me wrong; I love my job! I love the students I come into contact with every day but some days like today; I'm so ready to quit because I'd rather be writing.

Which brings me to the 'not enough time in the day' theme. Since there is NEVER enough time, I never get to get my hair done, or my nails done or take a spa day. I squeezed in three days of vacation with my kids and my family because I was determined to relax. I loved the time away, at the beach and spending time with my honey and kids but I began to feel guilty about it afterwards. So I did what any workaholic would do. I started working longer hours.

Today I received a jolt. My blood pressure spiked so high that the blood vessels in my eyes burst. Not a good look, so the doctor said, "slow down, relax or risk having a heart attack or stroke". Ok, I am going to listen so today, I am not going to worry about if everything gets done. I am going to do what I can and then I'm going to stop working after 7pm. If it doesn't get done, there is always tomorrow, right? Because there really is never enough time in the day to do EVERYTHING that you want to do.

But it beats laying in the hospital or worse. So for those of you that are workaholics; please slow down; your life depends on it. There isn't enough time in the day to do everything and there never will be.